At times it seems,
That I am not meant for you-
I know it seems hard to believe,
But please let me explain.

Why is it that
Though I try
As I can to make things work,
I feel that it is never enough?

Why is it that
When around you
I find it hardest to speak-
Express my sentiments, feelings,
Emotions and thoughts?

Why is it that
Everytime we are together,
Whenever I see your beautiful smile,
I wonder how long it will
Always be just for me?

Why is it that
I wonder how long you will be mine
To have and to hold-
And not another?

Why is it that
I have this fear of losing you
Once more-
A feeling of utter hopelessness
For something I am unable to prevent?

Why is it that
I feel so undeserving of you?
That someone like me,
Could have one like you?

Why is it that
I see our future
So full of the unknown,
So mistry and uncertain,
Another one of life's gambles?

Why is it that
Tales of you with another
Fill me with so much anguish,
Slowly driving me into
An abyss of despondency?

Why is it that
I am filled with these thoughts,
Now while we are together
Constantly nagging my conscience,
Never to let me be.

Why is it that
Even now I still do not know the answers
To all these questions?
Why?

Could there be
Something I am doing wrong?
Or maybe something
I might have missed along the way-
A precursor to all this?

What must I do,
To make it all go away?
To be finally at peace
With myself around you?
What must I say,
To comfort my restless soul,
When you are near?
What will it take
For me to believe
That sometimes love stories,
Do have a happy ending?

The minutes fly by
without a care
Everything around me
no longer seems fair.

When you're gone
everything fades
When you're gone
past have gone decades.

Everything is so dull,
so boring and mundane.
Everything is whitewashed
and all seems so plain.

The world seems empty
and the shadows are strong
Without you here,
everything seems wrong.

When you're gone
I love you more
For it is only you
whom I adore.

I'm surrounded by souls,
However, I'm nothing but alone
I sleep with two other creatures of my kind in the very same room
Nevertheless, I'm the only one left when my eyes shut
I talk to many ears throughout the day,
Although none of them really hear me
I sit close to many warm bodies,
But I am still frozen inside
I feel their touch graze my skin,
Even so, still numb I'll always be
I see them stare at me, judging character by appearance
Nonetheless, they are still blind and without guidance
I feel for those who chose horrible paths,
Their disabled souls force my care to go untouched
My tears of despair fall on closed, parched mouths
While my breath of courage blows against hardened hearts
I'm completely accompanied but utterly alone,
No one can reach to me, but the kiss of the dark grows
Seclusion in delusion, minus a life,
Saves a small soul from heart shattering strife

Take a peek through the eyes of love
And listen to the sound it brings
Feel the passion from deep within
'Cause love is more than everything
No matter how far the distance is
Even waiting takes forever
Love can rise through the ranks with ease
Never attempt to surrender
Honestly speaking, love takes time
Commit mistakes but never fails
Grows slowly but intimately
Will passes by and leaves a trail
Fill my heart with an empty bliss
Open your mind and read my piece

Maybe one day I will forgive you
And appreciate what we had
All the good and the beautiful
And to see just that

I am not ready yet
but don't let go
I still need to hate you
for another year or so

You were mean
You were rude
Handed out everything
You never could

I was hard
I wasn't true
You know I meant it
When I loved you

You were sweet
You were hot
I gave you everything
that I had not

We were happy
We were wrecked
Understood each other
Just didn't quite get

I wish all the best for the both of you
And you will be in my black list too

Love is really full of surprises
Surprises that lead us into sadness
We never knew what's been going on
Not a single clue, nothing at all.

I walk along the shore and think
Thinking how could possibly love sink?
If sorrow is not a big deal
Why does love needs to be real?

When love comes and enlightens our way
Stop and listen to what it says
"don't be a fool and open your eyes,
follow your heart and everything will harmonize".

If I could teach you how to fly
Or bake an elderberry pie
Or turn the sidewalks into stars
Or render new songs on an old guitar
If I could show you the way to heaven
The names of night, the taste of seven
And own them all to keep or lend
Would you come to be my friend?

I cannot teach you how to fly
I love the berries, but not the pie
The sidewalks are for walking on
An old guitar has just one song
The names of night cannot be known
The way to heaven cannot be shown
You cannot keep - you cannot lend
But still I want you for my friend.